today was fine!
having A&P lesson.
every week of A&P lesson i will always have a kind of unexplainable feeling.
mixture of feelings of running away, hopeless etc
it is really so unexplainable!!

i mean what is really going wrong in me?
what am i exactly afraid of?
memories are still arosing in my mind
have been thinking all the happy moments that we once had when being through all the places.

it is true that we both find it weird that we have been acting strangely for the past few weeks
and it seems she knew that we are drifting away
partly is my fault!
what is really wrong with me?
i should have show my encouragement, support when she needs it
and isn't running away
it is not what friends are for. .
but somehow i just can't hold myself back.
it had been such a huge blow to me as well.


but i am really happy that we did shared about how we felt today althought it was such a short chat.
it is so noticeable that she has been having some problem of her own
but as a friend, i did nothing at all, been running away
wth am i thinking about??!!

but really cross my heart. .
once entered in my life, it will always in my life
i wouldn't just let this flame gone like that...
yah.. (:

SUGAR RUSH~~~