Wednesday, May 14, 2008
i was happy at the moment but yet confused at the moment and yet i don't appreciate the moment we had. what past is past. everything is back to normal. at least i'm not hurt compared to the previous. i thought we were going to be as close as before after that day. but it seems that i was trying to run away. i know you had been trying your very best to pleased to, trying your friend to preserve the way you shown care towards your friends, trying your best to appreciate us, trying your best to stop such an silly act for losting contact, etc. i know . . i know. . i really know.
all thsi period of time, you act differently compared to the previous. what exactly are you hinting me? or maybe you are not hinting me at all, you are just trying to repay the coldness of you towards me or it was just the happy moments that trigger you. like a spit second.
i was so afraid to see you again. that's what i was thinking about all along. can't you feel it? i was so afraid that i might not know what to say when the moment i see you again. i was so afraid of everthing. what i could do was to run away. i thought that would be the best way.
i thought we can't be ourselves when we are together. i know you had been asking yourself and myself. are we close friends? i would be happy if you could be frank with me no matter what your answer is going to be.
some time i thought i'm just foolish to know you at that time. should i just call it off?